Alcoholism

As a son of an alcoholic & a sufferer of chronic depression it is such a struggle for me to not take up the touch that my father has passed to me and become an alcoholic. I wonder what it would be like some times though. Currently I abstain from alcohol .oO(mainly because my wife is scared of me becoming a boozer) but I don't believe that is beating, it is more like avoiding it.

The Worst Thing Ever

A bout a week or so ago I had two breakdowns on concecutive days which resulted in self harm and me screaming at and shakeing my wife (I have no excuse, it is tearing me to peices).

ADA Month Get Involved

This month is Anxiety and Depression Awareness month. As a sufferer I am a member of Beyond Blue and am trying to get involved to keep busy. If you are a sufferer, know a sufferer, or even just want to pitch in and help just click the link on this post.

No Direction

How do you choose a direction when you can't try and fail?

And here I go again

I am in so much pain. It hurts to be me. I hate me. I hate the paranoia I
just don't know what to believe. I cant trust my own mind.

Getting disheartend

I just want Polyamory sooooo much but all I see is things going wrong, and I can't see how it will workout. I am surrounded by negativity, contradictory stories, doom, and gloom. I just want to here that people have made it and how, but can I believe even if they tell me *sigh*.

I think I hurt a friend

I told a friend of mine that I would be on the internet last night but
getting on the internet at home upsets my wife and so I did not get on. I
think I am becoming that man I hate the one that promises things and
doesn't deliver.

Can they handle the truth?

I think I am poly and I know I am mentally ill which do you think I am more prepared to tell a prospective partner up front. Well for those who just can't wait or don't want to guess it is that I think I am poly. being that the major number one rule is honesty what do I do should I scare people up front or should I carefully navigate into an r'ship trying to conceal the fact that I am ill.