No Direction

How do you choose a direction when you can't try and fail?

And here I go again

I am in so much pain. It hurts to be me. I hate me. I hate the paranoia I
just don't know what to believe. I cant trust my own mind.

Getting disheartend

I just want Polyamory sooooo much but all I see is things going wrong, and I can't see how it will workout. I am surrounded by negativity, contradictory stories, doom, and gloom. I just want to here that people have made it and how, but can I believe even if they tell me *sigh*.