Hit the Bottem

She called me and I was fine while I was on the phone but when the called ended I continued my decent and now I have hit the bottem, good thing I have noting around to hurt myself with and I'm at work so straight out hurting myself is out of the question but work is ending soon and I have an hours drive ahead of me. I'm scared I might do something but I'm egar to find out. I'm read to end this it is killing me what my mind and emotions keep doing to me. My heart hurts. Why is this happening? I just want to take this all away.

I'm a Creep

Yeah Radio Head. Good-on-you.
Mood is getting lower she emailed back but she doesn't seem to understand. It hurts to try and tell her. Why do I do this? Why me? why can't I have a normal relationship? I just want to die!

In cyberspace No One Can Hear You Scream

It's all quiet no one posting on BB no email responses from Weny just cyber-silence.

I Think I'm Paranoid

Yep Garbage.
I think Broken on BB is my wife, but if it is then she is lying about not having internet at work, but then I keep things from her so it's okay. Although spying is another thing altogether, but I lie, I keep secrets, why trust me. I can feel the dispair creeping in. Is this a result of my paranoier or the let down I have experienced. I'll wait and see where it goes.

I think I'm okay

I sent her to this blog and she read my mind and has straightened me out. Now I wait and see how this makes me feel. I hope I haven't over steped the bounds, *sigh* maybe lost another friend. Stupid, stupid, stupid I don't think Harry is right I just think I am saotaging the relationships I have with women. Hmmm......

Starting to Feel the Same

I have started to feel the same familiar symtems from before while dealing with a new friend need to keep an eye on it I don't know what is going and I fear loosing another friend I don't think I could handle that. Need to find away to find out.

I Think I'm In Love With Everyone

Ahh, before I get the gay posts let me just clarify that as everyone of the oppisite sex. Also I have noticed thatit is predominatly older women. I have been hitting furiously on the older women on BB with no success. I just don't know why noone wants me .oO(just use me I don't care). I have also found a rather nice lady on yahoo who seem to have a thing for younger married men but that is still cold.

I'm Back, I'm Bad, You're Black, I'm Mad

Hey I'm back I have been out of my mind for a while and really couldn't be bothered posting I have joined a support forum for depressed people and people who are in contact with depressed people. So hopefully I'll be well enough to post more.